Letting Go!!!

This has been an amazing weekend!! This weekend we had our church's mens retreat. It was so powerful. The speaker was Dr. Jerry Huson. Who used to be the president of my Alma mater San Diego Christian College. He is a very Godly man, and challenged us to live a life that says " I'm all In" I want to be all in for Jesus and one way I know that I can get to that spot is my life is to let go of the pain and wounds that have been holding me back from being "all in". One way that I am going to be "all in" is to seek some counseling so I can properly handle the grief of my mom's death which was 9 years ago, but I still have some things I need to bring to closure and complete the healing. I have been holding to my emotions for too long and it's time for them to be released, so I don't release them in other areas (which usually is anger) but God has been laying it on my heart to get some counseling for it, and after a good talk with my dad and the messages that Jerry spoke, I know without a shadow of a doubt, that this is what God wants me to do. God has brought me a long way in the healing process over my mom's passing in the last year and I feel like this is last step I need to take to bring closure (although there will always be a reminder and I don't think these things are something that God intends for us to get completely over.) I do feel that emotional healing is very important so that I can live a healthy life and not have the grief dictate my life.

Mom, I miss you. I love you. I will never forget you. God thanks for the time I got to spend with her!!

I want to be "all in for Jesus". I want to live a life of purity, that I can bless my future wife with. I don't want to be the typical "lustful man" This society praises lust and sex, and I think that is wrong and a distortion of true beauty and what God has intended true love to be. I want to be a man who looks upon all women with purity and treat them like sisters. I know that God will bring that one special lady around at the right time, and by being pure I won't have to bring any unnecessary baggage into the relationship and we can focus on having a relationship that is based upon the Rock of our salvation. Living a life of purity is a great way of being "All in for Jesus" Jesus thanks for never letting me go, and thanks that I can let go of all my pain and hurt and bring it before you and you bring healing and peace that surpasses all understanding :) I love you Jesus. I am going to be All In For You!!!