Contentment and the Lean Years Tradition

" I am ready, when your ready for me" That is a line from a song that is describing how God is waiting for us to call upon Him, because He is always ready for us. I am also using that quote as me saying that I am ready for that time when I find the right girl.

Ever since high school, I have been longing and desiring to find a wife, in college i was desperate and trying to view every girl as a potential relationship, which did not go well. Over the last couple of weeks. God has been showing me that I need to keep Him first in my life, and surrender my will in pursuing the girl that I liked... am still getting over. God told me to stop pursuing her, and it took awhile for me to listen because I really liked this girl, but over the last couple of weeks, my eyes have been opened and I decided that we are just better off as friends.

I feel with the last couple of girls that I have liked I am honing in on the qualities that I want in my wife. Each girl has been a little bit closer to what I desire in a wife, and that means that God has laid upon my heart the kind of girl that I am suppose to marry. God has been good to me! and I have never been so content in being single as I am right now.

I can use my singleness to bring God glory, I am able to do all kinds of ministry stuff without any restrictions and I have been able to focus on doing well in seminary, and being able to hang out with my friends.

The Lord also impressed on my heart, that I do not have enough time for a relationship right now, and I feel like He is preparing me to be a good boyfriend, and husband. By making Jesus my first priority the rest will fall into place, and when I meet the right girl I will be ready for her!! and in the meantime, I am going to keep loving on the Lord and doing His will for my life!

Oh Clarity

Clarity is something that everyone craves, especially when it comes to our lives. Often times though, we do not get clarity and are sometimes it feels like we are wondering around aimlessly. I know that lately in my life, I feel like there has been a huge haze that I have been caught in. Over these last two weeks, It seems that the haze is starting to clear, and I have been able to see things more clearly. One area that has been way hazy God is making clearer and clearer. I need to trust in God's plan for my life and not worry about the rest. Right now my focus is going to be on serving the Lord with all of my heart, and letting go of my own worries and having confidence in who God has made me and confidence in the ministries that I am responsible for running. With God as my focus, everything else will fall in place.

Stand Out and Stand Up

Extremes... We are told to try and live a life that is middle of the road. Why do that? it's boring, We should live life on extermes. I was reading a book recently that is called "The Gospel according to Starbucks" by Lenoard Sweet. He was writing that we should live lives that stand out and that aren't middle of the road. I know that in my own life, I don't always like standing out, I want to blend in most of the time, that is how my personality is. As a Christian, though I do want to stand out and make a difference. I also want to be able to show the world the Love of Jesus in my life. At church on Sunday, my pastor was speaking on mirror image. Jesus has called us to be a mirror image of him. That is so hard! everyday has it's own challange and often times when I look in the mirror, I don't see the reflection of Jesus, because I am caught up in trying to live life my way, instead of God's. That is why I am so thankful, for the grace that the Lord has given us, and if I start the day off with him, I am so much more likely to see the reflection of Jesus in the mirror. I want my life to be well curved, heading upwards not being steady in the middle. I am ready to stand out, and stand up.

new season

here I am back again on blogger after a long hiatus, one quick thing, doing the google captchia is crazy strange, I finally got it right on like the tenth time, maybe I am just a slow learner!

My life is so busy, I am running three different ministries at my church, all while working and pursuring my masters. I cannot wait for the summer, because I am cutting back on work and taking a leave of absence from Seminary, so I can find time to sleep and relax. My body is tired and tense and cannot wait for the month of April to end. Maybe I will even get eight hours of sleep again sometime soon :)